Honestly, I was really looking forward to yesterday because instead of thinking about the anniversary of my mother-in-laws death (which happens to also be on Victoria's birthday) I was able to keep busy with 4 girls and a birthday party. I purposefully did not even put anything on Facebook about it being 8 years since she passed away. I didn't want to think about - but to only concentrate on Victoria.
The day was beautiful and we spent a few hours at the pool and then off to cheer practice. We finished up the evening with cupcakes at the fire station with Daddy. :) She was happy and exhausted all at once that evening. As I was putting her to bed we were talking about her uncle - who happened to be at the ER last night - and she said, "he is not having a good birthday today". I wasn't sure what she meant because his birthday is mid August. So I corrected her, and immediately she disagreed. I asked her why she thought his birthday was the same as her. She said quickly, "because that is what the tattoo says on his arm".
Oh my, this is not the conversation I wanted to have with Victoria as her birthday was ending. I told her what the tattoo meant and that on August 1st, her second birthday, was when her Grandma went to heaven. She was devastated. I held her and we both cried for a long time. She has always known that Grandma died in a motorcycle accident, but she has never asked specifics. Well last night that changed, and as I sat and answered all the questions she asked I didn't see a little girl. I saw something more mature, something in her eyes that changed. It was a bonding time that I will never forget between the two of us.
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